seymoure | It's right there!

My page is up, and that is a great relief, but it brings me to another point. The last 4 days I have felt crappy. Not just depressed, but physically ill. I knew I could key it from the time I spent an entire day working on the damn computer and getting nothing. I have to work so hard to make any of the computer stuff make sense, that when what I think I know doesn't work it really pulls my short hairs. You see, I'm dyslexic and cannot make sense of manuals. I can read stories, simply because they have context that I can format into something that makes some kind of sense. All the work in HTML I have done has been by trial and error and every success is a big thing. But then Blogger pages changes their format and I am working from page 1 all over again. This threw me into anger and then depression. Then I felt rotten. It was right before my eyes, but I refused to see it. My health wasn't really that much worse, but I saw it in greater focus because I was focused on ME! And there is the explaination of all altruism. The more you help others, the less hopeless your own situation seems.