What I am supposed to write about

I never think I get this LJ thing right. It is supposed to be a journal, but I have never had a meaningful talk with anything or anyone I wasn't trying to get a reaction from, so I don't feel secure about my opening up here. But, this morning I have these feelings. Today I am aware of how slender is the thread and how easily severed. I, therefore, have to say a couple of things. I love women. I am a lucky man. The two grown women I love most in the world love me. I think there is also a young lady who is learning to love me. Do you know how amazing that is? So many people go through life with a nodding relationship with the rest of the world, to work, home and little in between. If you get that thing, that amazing thing, grab it and never let go. I have love a few men, liked many more and am comfortable with that. And, then there are the other women I have loved. My mother in law and I had a good relationship, after the initial storm we really did learn to love and respect each other. There have been other women I have love, some of whom I had to pull back from because I didn't want to mess up what I had, but that is who I am. I think those ladies know who they are and know how valuable they have been to me. Despite what my family would like to think, I am a rather simple man. I like seeing people happy and if I can help them get that way, so much the better. I always feel when people talk to me, I am surprised and am sure they could be using their time more wisely, and yet I am grateful for the attention. YOU OUT THERE IN THE WORLD! YES, I'M TALKING TO YOU! If anyone tells you to hate anybody, anytime, look them in the eye and say, "No thanks, I'd rather not. I enjoy my heart to much to fill it with anything but love." Yes, there are people who do things that make it hard to love them, and that is as it is. But to hate them is a whole different bag of eels. There are people who have made it impossible for me to love, but if they were hurt and bleeding, not one of them would I try to help. And if it came to give my life for another, just about any I can think of, I would do so. Not for them, but because of who I am. I hope I will always be that person. You too.